Overdo Apology!

This is something I have always had an issue doing, this is definitely a good step in the right direction. 

You need to know, you are a beyond a doubt the most wonderful person I have know and I have been less than worthy of you for many years now. I have done little in all the years to give you the respect and free will you deserve. Controlling way to much of your life and temper tantrums when I did not get my way until you have given in. This apology stems from my own realization of all my wrong doing. My grieve there has been a lot. From the beginnings of dealing with me being a stripper and a groupie out of complete control. Taken off just as you would arrive. Nitpicking everything I thought u did wrong. Flirting or taken it 5 steps further with whomever I felt like. I am truly sorry, being on a huge pedestal and having an ego the size of Europe was never a good thing. When I look back at how much of a bitch I was. Honestly if the me now met me then I would hate myself. Some how you liked the crazy me and stuck by me. As the years went on I never appreciated what was always in front of me.  I would only assume that is what lead to much frustration in your life. I do not want to do that again. I am owning my mistakes so I do not make them again. The truth is I do love you more than words can tell.  I want to change everything. I want to give you control, let you make all your own decisions to do what or for that matter who you want. I want to see you happy. I need to learn to respect anything you chose whether I like it or not. Life is not all about me and it never should of been that way. It is long over due to be your turn to take over the reins in this relationship. I deserve anything and everything you decide. I would love to see a you filled with confidence and loads of self esteem. I am humbly sorry. We have walked a long road and I hope we will continue for another 20 years. This time will you in control, I will learn more each day to be subservient to you.